On Intimacy

This is what I desire to explore and to explore it I need help because it cannot be done alone.

It cannot be done with a coach, therapist, teacher or in a group. It can only be done with a partner willing to go there together, in communion with me.

It’s deep, it’s below, it’s under.

It’s further in than the inside.

It’s above the aboves, it’s beyond the beyonds.

There are no words, there are no explanations, it’s all experience and courage to face what has never been faced before. It’s a new realm of unknown. It’s the unknown other side of pleasure.

Not pain.

But a pleasure beyond measure, beyond understanding. Beyond the smiles and laughter and enjoyment of common experience.

And that will bring out the pain of not having it. Of missing it, of having been without i for so long.

Too long…

Of everything that isn’t and never was ecstatic bliss.

THAT will be very painful, indeed.